falling

I feel so desperately sad. Nothing really happened except for a holiday. It just feels like I am SO alone. So empty. I find my self questioning my own existance and if I really want to exist. Then I kick myself in the ass for even going there.

I'm tired of being brave. I'm tired of trying so hard and never getting anywhere. I'm tired of false hope, and wondering if it is false. I'm tired of love I hear but can't feel. I'm tired of feeling like I'm in the way. I'm tired of being pitiful. I'm tired of having one setback after another.

I'm just so damn tired.

But I'll be okay, because anything else is inconvenient.